The Media

I wish this blog had some pictures. But if anything, I would only want to put pictures up that I personally take myself.
But anyways, I think a lot in the shower. I guess because there really is nothing better to do, but think. I don't sing in the shower. And really, when I think, I find myself always in the middle of everything. I'm always torn in my opinions. I'm always giving myself a hard time because I find huge differences in what I do believe and what I want to believe. I'm really caught up in trying to be the person that I want myself to be, and sometimes that conflicts with the values that I have grown up with.

Religion
I was raised to believe in some Buddhist deities that will cause thunder to strike you when you talk back to your parents and chop your hands and feet off when you do weird stuff with your hands and feet. I mean, my mom believes in the sect of Buddhism that reveres supernatural figures. But Buddhism is just a way of life. I respect that. As for the other theistic religions. I don't even really want to comment. I already have made my point known. And New Atheism is just the same. It's really a religion in itself, the fact that it is so zealous. I just don't ever want to think of religion in general. But I like to debate on that stuff. I don't want to commit or comment on religion, as it is such a waste of time. It drains your time, drains your mind. Ughh. It's only fun for debates. [Science rules.]

Politics
I feel ridiculous saying this, but I am a lot more conservative than I want to admit. I want to be that liberal, that in-your-face politician. But I don't have what it takes. I deeply admire the crackpotism that rears of liberal extremists' heads; I mean, they have the best ideas, although they taint those great ideas with extremism. Everything in moderation. Man, they could make peace on Earth. I am so into the idea of do as you please, I won't judge. But let's face it, I am not courageous enough not to judge. And some times I feel like, "Okay, so what if I judge, it's human nature." I do feel like that is in my instinct and that is still what I believe. I mean, I don't judge in a way that is socially unhealthy, but I do have my preconceptions of people based on how they act. Don't "actions speak louder than words," anyway? But then sometimes, I will get really disgusted with myself for having it in me--the inclination to stereotype. Especially because I want to be such a hardcore Democrat. I am much more Democrat than I will ever be Republican--that's for sure. I would never let 'God' sway me; and hopefully, (because I want to be wealthy when I grow up--who doesn't?) I won't let self-interest inculcate some crazy trickly-prickly economic ideas in me either. But I am conservative in the fact that I do judge people by their decisions to smoke, drink, and do drugs. I mean. It sounds crazy, but the essential idea of liberalism is "Live and Let Live," am I right? That means let those druggies, alchies, and ashtrays do their thing. I do mine. But I can't because I can't stand the notion that they are human beings with beautiful minds that choose the path self-destruct. I hate that, which in turn, makes me want to shake them and say, "Stop it, you nitwit!"
So are you getting the sense that I am some crazy schizo?

Media
I watched some of Michael Moore's crazy documentaries. And it is just so obvious that most Americans--your average American, are silly subjects to the Media honchos' empire. It's so obvious. Yet, Michael Moore is a part of the media. And he has to have an agenda of his own. No? So what do you believe? We cannot sit and ignore media the way we can ignore religion. It's not an option. Where can we get pure news. I mean, news isn't something that's just available. Only reporters and editors are in control and have access to fresh news. We just get the filtered version. Sucks.

I'm stupid.