Suck it up

Last quarter, I dropped LS1 even before the quarter officially started. This quarter, I'm taking 19 units, which for me, from last quarter, is comparatively a bold venture. And I feel like I'm complaining about whether I would be able to handle the job on teh side. I am such a baby! I'm scared that I'm feeling some kind of entitlement. And I realize I need to suck it up. If I indeed want to double major and minor, I need to learn to take a heavy load. And deal with it. I shouldn't slack off and feel like, "Oh, it's because I had so many classes--I was spread so thin!"

No more complaining for me. I'm really going to try to make this work. I want to excel.

Additionally, I have been getting anxiety of late. I think it's because I fear that I won't do well this quarter, with all that I have on my plate. I'm worried about O Chem. I hope everything goes well. I need to stop spending so much time reading Hollywood gossip and fashion blogs. I'm crazy with that stuff. I can spend hours without end looking at that. And FACEBOOK is a silly distraction! AIM! Ahhh!

I feel like I need to allot specific time for play and specific time for work, but I realize that I am a fluid person. I don't like schedules. I don't think I take schedules very seriously, which is why I am always late to everything. I like that I don' t block out my time, for homework, play and shower or something. But if I don't, I feel like I spend too much time on play.

So lately my appetite has not been so good. Nor has my digestion. I get anxiety in my stomach. It feels jittery and rumbly grumbly. I woke up unusually early this morning. 7.25 for a 9 a.m. class. I actually woke up at 5. And tried going back to sleep. But I had anxiety. I hope it's not a sign that I'm going psychotic. Just kidding.

At work today, I worked the Bowls. It's so much easier! I kind of like it.