Death

How do you know when you die? I am sure that those near-death are given some biological signs. Or perhaps I am thinking too favorably of Mother Nature--assuming that she should not be so cruel as to surprise you with death. I remember my grandpa's few last days. Before I left for Denver, I went to visit him on a Thursday night. He asked me to play the horse game with him. I hadn't played in a while so I kind of forgot. But my grandma was telling me how he was asking my uncle and his daughter to play with him. I don't remember him playing that game all that much since I was a kid about 14 years ago, when I spent every day with him. Do you want to leave the world with certain memories? Was there a reason that he wanted to play? He asked me to visit him and play that game with him. Now that I think back on it, it seems all the more important. And I'm feeling all the more remorseful that I didn't visit with him and spend more time with him. It's tragic. I wish I could take back some of my thoughts and horrible decisions. I do believe that sometimes I am very selfish, and very obnoxiously so.